Not so much thoughtas thoughtlessness. Emptying
my mind to be you, to see
like you, to feel like you,
to find something you might love.
I leave the station, andfollow the scent to Spitalfields
where I have shopped as you before.
The aisles of the market are short,
squat, only two or three stalls,
and then I have to turn again.
Jewellery. No. Too many conflictingirritating metals, the wrong chemistry
today for your skin. Clothes. Where
would you wear them? I can’t take
you anywhere without a car and
cash, and nights too late.
Hats? I’d love to see youwear one, a people’s hat, skew whiff
and crushed and messy,
but you wouldn’t. Move on.
Vinyl records made into clocks;
they break my heart, so cruel.
More jewellery, t-shirts that wouldnot fit your moods, carved
woods you’d hide
under our dust. And it’s nearly the end,
light from the next street of reality,
so I turn back.
I saw these bags in the second aisle,when I first started,
sumptuous colours and flesh,
the perfume of the real. I am
you, in jeans, in a hurry, looking
for something that lasts.
Here it is.
For Marianne, on Valentine's Day 2014